Wednesday, June 22, 2011

I'm CANCER FREE!!!! Yes, I'm saying it again...because I can :)

I'm one drain tube away from being free!! I went to the Dr yesterday and to my dismay she only pulled one, I was still very grateful but a little disappointed to have to leave with the awkward and uncomfortable drain tube sticking out of my right chest wall. LOL! Did I paint a lovely picture? On a positive note, I received my Pathology report from my surgery!! My surgeon told me that there was only 1.6mm (that's TEENY TINY folks) of cancer left in my body when she went in for surgery! She said that it was amazing and that after removing it all and my breast there is completely clear margins all the way around. Also, out of 16 lymph nodes removed from my right axilla, only one came back positive which accounts from the remaining 1.6mm of cancer that remained prior to surgery. Pretty amazing! God kicked some major bootie on my cancer!! Best words to ever hear, CANCER FREE!!!!

Now it's the time to treat my body like the holy temple it is! Did ya know that Diet and exercise alone can reduce my chances of recurrence by up to 40% for my particular type of cancer, Triple Negative Breast Cancer? That's huge. NON NEGOTIABLE. My life is non negotiable. So here we go! My journey on becoming a Cleansed GREEN healthy fighting machine! Plant-based, organic, raw veggies, juicing, whole wheat, low glycemic fruits, alkalizing green drinks and super powered green smoothies. Saying NO to sugars, animal products, starches, caffeine, coffee and processed foods. I am super excited to embark on my new journey of health and life and and more excited that my family has committed with me! If any of you fellow bloggers out there are already living green and would love to share recipes, tips or anything, please do!!

I hope everyone is having a wonderful week!! Much love!!

Monday, June 20, 2011

Just because..

Happy Monday!!! I wanted to share this letter with you all from a woman that was diagnosed with breast cancer. This woman, like myself, was diagnosed with triple negative breast cancer and now two years later is cancer free. I relate to her words so much and feel like they could be my own. Happy Monday to you all!!! Much love!

Dear Cancer,

You came into my life a few months ago and caused me great pain. My heart was broken when I heard you were attempting to take my life. Many tears were shed and many screams into the nearest pillow I could find. To rid your disease my body was cut, poked and run down. I did not understand why you chose me. You caused extreme fear and worry for those that love me. You created a world for me that I did not want to be in. Your goal is death, but I would fight you hard. How can you stand the thought of taking a mother away from her two small children and leave her husband alone? Did you think I would allow this to happen? You made me sick and very tired and some days I could not sleep. You kept me up thinking what if..... You took away precious time from my children and family, time I cannot get back. You left my family helpless to watch me endure your motives. My mom and dad couldn't even fix this, they used to be able to fix everything. You took my sense of security of health and my hair. Most of all, you scared my children and I hated you for that. But not anymore.


It took some time, but I realized you are not in control. I am in control of how I remedy and handle what you have attempted to do to me. Although you are not a person, you are capable of doing what some people do to each other every day. I want to call you evil, but evil you are not. You taught me many things on this journey. Things I never knew before. You woke up my senses. Made me more appreciative for life and family. You allowed me to meet new friends to last a lifetime and build stronger friendships with those already my friends. Helped me see what true friends are all about. You made me humble. You showed me how loving and caring complete strangers can be. You made me realize how precious life is, and really how short it is. You taught me to not sweat the small stuff, there is always a bigger fish to fry. You made me want to get to know God, and place my faith in him. You are helping me be a better and a healthier person. You taught me patience and endurance. You made me want to help other women also embedded with your disease. You made me stronger, I can do anything now. You made me realize life can change in an instant, step back and enjoy the moment. You helped me get my priorities in order, what is more important. You allowed me to not take those I love for granted. I've learned that there are other people far worse off than me and not to feel sorry for myself. I've made you part of my life now, because you are. I will never forget what this journey has taught me. Better days are around the corner. It won't be long and I will have the ability to soak up my children's energy and appreciate it, my health, a new head of hair, and my head held high. Cancer, thank you for the lessons. Should you someday feel the need to come back and visit me, I will be ready for you.

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Blessed.

It's Monday morning, June 13th, 2011. 4:30am, a new day. I woke up and I have no fear and am calm looking straight into the storm. God has answered my prayers and has given me strength, courage, and peace. Gods Words always know how to comfort us in the right place and time. This was my morning bible verse, Exodus 14:13-14 13 But Moses told the people, "Don't be afraid. Just stand still and watch the Lord rescue you today. The Egyptians you see today will never be seen again. 14 The Lord himself will fight for you. Just stay calm. And that is exactly what I did.

Gives you goose bumps, huh? Pretty amazing. My family gathered with me at the surgery center and said a prayer over me before I went back for prep. I was walked back to the operating room and my surgeon met me at the door with her kind eyes and I was helped to the table. NO FEAR. I felt so calm. My Doctor took my hand and remained eye contact with me as the anesthetist began to apply the gas to me and IV meds to put me asleep. Surgery Successful. And then I woke up....and I was new. Blessed.

I can honestly say I have never felt so alive and happy. So thankful! My Doctor came to see me early the next morning and I will never forget these words, "You can now call yourself cancer free!" I AM A SURVIVOR. I KICKED SOME MAJOR CANCER BOOTIE and will continue to fight for the rest of my life ;) Praise JESUS!!! I still have radiation treatment and will start in a few weeks and this will last 8-9 weeks. This is to eliminate and kill any remaining cells on my chest wall. I will have another PET/MRI scan after my radiation treatments to officially confirm that I am cancer free. Please pray as I continue treatments and recovery.

I'm doing really good and each day I get a little stronger! I have the most amazing support of family and friends helping us out this week. Thank you! Thank you Mom and Terry for taking care of our little angel and Thank you Mom for taking care of me. Your an amazing MOM!! And to my sweet loving husband, THANK YOU for being a strong man of God and loving me fully and for... holding my hand, wiping the tears, dressing me, bathing me, changing dressings, and for telling me how beautiful how I am every chance you get. Thank You. God truly knew what he was doing when he sent you to me. (tear)
We have been blessed with some amazing people in our lives! From friends bringing us food all week long to sweet cards, texts, phone calls and visits...Thank you, I love you all. Thank you for the continuous prayers!

I will follow up with my surgeon on Tuesday for my post operative appointment! Big Day! For one, I will get these drain tubes out :) Halleluiah! and two, I will get to truly see my incisions and chest for the first time :) and yes, Everything is going to be alright :)
I hope everyone is enjoying a wonderful Father's Day!
Much love to you all!!!!

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

BYE BYE Tata's

Monday, June 13th. 4 days until my surgery. 4 days until I am cancer free and they remove my breast. 4 days! The anticipation is building and I'm ready. Ready to really LIVE my life. A new life...a new beginning. I give thanks because of HIM. Please pray for strength, courage, healing and no complications during my surgery on Monday and as I recover and start radiation. I love you all and will try my best to give updates as much as I can on my blog :) THINK PINK!


For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you, not to harm you. Plans to give you HOPE and a FUTURE. Jeremiah 29:11

Wednesday, June 1, 2011