Monday, January 31, 2011
I met with my breast surgeon today as well after chemotherapy and she was able to ultrasound my cancer sites. Healing is taking place. The mass in the lymph node at my right axillary is now half the size smaller since we started treatment(The Dr compared it to that is was a softball and now it's the size of an egg!!!). And my tumor in my right breast is shrinking as well. BLESSED! God is good! I still have 5 more months of chemotherapy, THE CANCER WILL BE GONE at the end of my treatments! I will have a Double Mastectomy after this is over followed by radiation for an additional 6-7 weeks to attack remaining cells left on my chest wall.
I found out after meeting with a geneticist and having some blood work that I am positive for the BRCA 1 gene. Which means I carry the gene for breast/ovarian cancer. Such an important test! My daughter now has a 50% chance of carrying this gene when she is older. She now will have the knowledge and resources for her health and screening can start early for her. BLESSED!
Thank you all for amazing support! The cards, texts, messages, phone calls, gifts from you all fill my heart with joy! Smiles and big hugs to each and everyone of you! Much love! THINK PINK!
Thursday, January 27, 2011
I believe God has a special purpose and special plan for each one of us. We are all on our own unique journey to live out His will for our lives, if we will only give Him the liberty to be the King of our life.
See… He showed me He can use anything and everything we go through in life to bring glory to Him. It’s not about us. We’ve only overcome because of God’s healing power.
One of the promises I’ve been continually comforted by is Romans 8:28 that says …in all things God works for the good of those who love him, and who have been called to his purpose.
I might not ever understand why, but I can surrender my circumstance to Christ and allow Him to bring beauty from ashes.
But you know what… if those challenges were the small price I had to pay for the gift of having a voice to share the faithfulness of Christ with just one person that hasn’t experienced the loving touch of Jesus, then it’s all worth it. He loves us endlessly and desires to show His faithfulness to us. We just have to trust Him.
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
I've had a great day, peaceful. Rested well! I even bounced out of bed and decided it's time to do it...it's time to chop my hair off! It's time for the transition and to make it easier when I become GI JANE bald in less than a week or two...YIKES. So here I am! Excuse me for my complete dorky and over dramatic poses. Never take yourself too serious!
Oh...I also included pic that I found on my Iphone from my first chemotherapy treatment. It's not a very good image of whats happening but you can kinda see my port and iv. It's not as scary as it sounds!
Thank you everyone for all the prayers, support and love. Much love! THINK PINK!
Monday, January 24, 2011
To start off the week I wanted to share an inspirational message that was shared to me by my brother in law, Dustin. Much love to you all!
Driving in the Dark
I’ve always thought that I could get through just about anything if the Lord would tell me what the outcome would be. I believe that “all things work together for good” in the end (Rom. 8:28), but I’d do a lot better in dark times if I knew exactly what the “good” would look like.
But God usually doesn’t show us where He is taking us. He just asks us to trust Him. It’s like driving a car at night. Our headlights never shine all the way to our destination; they illuminate only about 160 feet ahead. But that doesn’t deter us from moving forward. We trust our headlights. All we really need is enough light to keep moving forward.
God’s Word is like headlights in dark times. It is full of promises we need to keep us from driving our lives into the ditch of bitterness and despair. His Word promises that He will never leave us nor forsake us (Heb. 13:5). His Word assures us that He knows the plans He has for us, plans for wholeness and not for evil, to give us “a future and a hope” (Jer. 29:11). And He tells us that our trials are there to make us better, not bitter (James 1:2-4).
So the next time you feel as if you’re driving in the dark, remember to trust your headlights—God’s Word will light your way.
The Word of God provides the light
We need to see the way;
It shows us what we need to know
So we won’t go astray. —Sper
You won’t stumble in the dark
if you walk in the light of God’s Word.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
January 6th 20011: found a "golf ball" size mass under my right axillary (underarm) while in the shower. This was a complete shocker. I do self breast exams monthly and had just had my well woman visit 3 weeks prior from this date and everything was normal...no mass...normal tissue.
January 7th: Went to my primary care physician and she didn't like the feel of this mass and stated my breast tissue felt completely different than 3 weeks ago. Scheduled a CT guided biopsy for the next week. GREAT...now I had the entire weekend to "NOT THINK ABOUT IT".
January 10th: CT Guided Biopsy....ouch!
waiting waiting...still no results....
January 12th: I had an appointment to meet with one of the best breast surgeons in Tulsa...I was anticipating that she would have my biopsy results. I was the last appointment of the day 6:00. My Dr came in and gently broke the news."You have breast cancer." I will never forget that day. Ever. Life changing, eye opening. My world stopped with those 4 words. Flashes of my daughter, my husband, my family, friends raced across my mind. And then I had a peace come over me, a strength from within. I knew God was in that room right there with me. From that moment on I knew everything was going to be all right. I will beat this...born faith warrior.
January 14th: BO is home with us finally! He was gone for a business trip at salt lake city,Utah. What a blessing he is to me. He is so strong. Amazing supportive husband. I started my day off with lab work, meeting my oncologist, and having a MRI, PET scan, and mammogram. PRAYER is POWERFUL....my pet scan results showed that my cancer has not spread to any other part of my body. God is good!
My cancer has spread to my right axillary(underarm) lymph node but we already knew that. That is the mass I felt in the shower. The actually tumor size in my right breast is only 1.5-2 cm.
Nothing changes here. Fact: I have breast cancer. It has spread to my right axillary lymph node. AND NOWHERE ELSE. AMEN.
January 17: Surgery day!!!!! Today I got my port placed on my left chest right under my collar bone. This is where they will give me my chemotherapy medicines intravenously through the port. One step closer to kicking this cancer in the booty. I was exhausted from all of the meds they gave me during surgery that I slept the rest of the day and night away. I needed a nice sleep vacay :)
January 18: I have been so excited about today! CHEMOTHERAPY starts!!! We are officially attacking and killing cancer cells! My nurses were amazing! My husband sat right by my side, such a comfort. my sister bought a library of books for me to cozy up to during these long 3 hour chemo sessions. And plus, I have netflix on my Iphone! movie time! my family is amazing. I have never been so completely overwhelmed with such love, support, and prayer. I am at peace.
January 19th: I feel pretty good today! My port is still extremely sore. I've had on/off nausea all day long but my medicine has kept it under control. Nutrition and exercise are some key components in fighting cancer. Since I was diagnosed and after some research I have the attitude "Eat to live". literally...it's so healthy. My mind set is so strong and focused that I would do anything right now and forever to stay healthy and cancer free. I will begin a focused exercise regimen when my port heals in about a week. Here is the plan: chemo for 6 months and then surgery. Prayers that the chemo completely kills all of the cancer spreading cells to my right underarm and kills and shrinks the tumor to none. It's possible and that is what we are praying for. I have chosen to have bilateral mastectomy either way. I don't play nice with cancer or take risk that it might come back. I'd rather live than have my Ta- Ta's. Hands down.
Life changing, eye opening, world stopping events...when your faith is tested, challenged...a faith warrior is born. Prayer is powerful. God is the healer of all things.
I lift up my eyes to the mountains—
where does my help come from?
2 My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.
3 He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber;
4 indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.
5 The LORD watches over you—
the LORD is your shade at your right hand;
6 the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night.
7 The LORD will keep you from all harm—
he will watch over your life;
8 the LORD will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.
This blog is not a diary. You will not read my deepest darkest feelings here...those are for me only. This is an uplifting, encouraging, supportive blog for my family and friends to follow along with me and my family during this FIGHT and WIN against Breast Cancer. Love you all and thank you for prayers. And remember, THINK PINK!