Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Happy Halloween!





Ava ditched her monkey costume last minute and gleamed with excitement when she saw her last years Halloween costume hanging in her closet. A pumpkin it is!!! And a cute Pumpkin she makes!!!

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

4month checkup!!!





Can I just say how much I love my family! Truly I am so blessed. My little Ava is the sweetest thing since apple pie. She has so much character and sass and yet is gentle, sweet and thoughtful. So smart, independent and full of charm. I adore these days home with her. It has been awhile since i have posted any photos of my love, so here are a few recent ones. I can't believe she is 29 months old, slow down my little sweet pea.

We have been keeping things quite around our house and doing a lot of crafts and painting, outdoor play etc...(nothing too strenuous) so that I am able to rest and regain my strength for my next surgery. I feel great, just a little tired but its to be expected from everything. Surgery is scheduled for November 9th! 2 weeks! Exciting! I will be done after this, thank goodness.

I had my 4month check up with my oncologist and breast surgeon this week! Prayers answered. My blood work came back completely normal, beautiful in fact. And my ultrasound was clear. Now I can take a deep breath, so blessed. I will see them again for my next check up in 3-6 months and this will continue for years to come. So thankful to have such excellent Doctors who are watching over me so closely.

It's been about 6 months since I have gone Vegan and have been green juicing every day. Best decision I could have ever made. I feel amazing. My Doctors back me up on this being the best thing I could have ever done for myself. So many great benefits, healthy benefits. I feel so cleansed. My husband is doing so good transitioning into the vegan diet. This was strictly his decision and after seeing my results and watching documentaries and reading resources he decided to jump in too. I'm having so much fun in the kitchen and cooking such clean pure foods. So many delicious recipes!! You can go to my side bar and click on the vegan food blogs that I enjoy (Oh she glow, Peas and thank you, Vegan Yum Yum, Vegan Lunch box, Gluten free Goddess) He has also given up soda and now is drinking mostly water. So proud of him! A plant based diet along with exercise is proven to prevent and can even reverse cardiac disease, diabetes, preventing and recurrences of cancer, and many other diseases. Enough said.

I love this time of year, it is my absolute favorite. Everything about fall warms my heart. In fact I am about to make a batch of homemade pumpkin butter in my crock pot. Just imagine what my house is going to smell like in a few hours! YUM!

Enjoy the week! Take time with your family and the ones you love!

Jen

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

2 surgeries down...one more to go.

Peter 1:6-76 In all this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. 7 These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.

Let me be reminded how great our Father is and what all he has done and to use my "trials" to glorify him. Such a little cost I have had to pay to gain such rich faith and understanding of how good he is and to be able to share this with others. BLESSED.

I apologize for the late post about my Thyroidectomy surgery. My surgery was a success and I am now post op day 8 and am feeling really good and regaining strength. This was such an easy breezy surgery and recovery compared to everything else :) Praise God!

I met with my hysterectomy Dr on Monday and scheduled this surgery for wednsday, November 9th. I know what your thinking! Back to back surgeries!!! Crazy lady. Yes, I am hardcore like that :) only kidding. Not really though ;)
Everything will be fine, I can handle this and I am ready to get all this behind me so I can push FORWARD. I want to spend the holidays with my family without the worries of surgery and I also want to be energetic and perky to head back to work at the beginning of the year. Yes, Work!!! Exciting!!! After much prayer I feel like I am being called to go into oncology. Please pray that as I start searching for my new nursing position that God will lead me to a place where I will have the opportunity to impact many.

I hope everyone is having a good week, enjoying this beautiful fall weather! Remember this month is National breast cancer awareness month! Ladies, make sure you are giving yourself monthly self breast exams and if you are at risk get a mammogram. So important. Get informed. Think pink!

Much love!

Friday, September 2, 2011

:) :) :) :) :)

TREATMENTS ARE OVER! Hard to believe that 8 months ago I was starting my journey to fight breast cancer. What a journey it has been. It was never easy and I had some really tough days but I ALWAYS pushed through. The power of positive thinking, faith, and prayer have been my saving grace. God held me up and fought this battle for me 100% and I know he will continue to fight for me. I know that if I should have a recurrence and cancer return that I will happily put back on my fighting gloves again. I am strong. This year has been a blessing in disguise. My eyes have been opened, my vision is clear and my life now has new purpose. I believe that this was God's plan for me, building faith so that I can make a difference through my experience and testimony of his love and faithfulness and help others who are suffering and ill. I have a vision. Please pray for this.
I feel so blessed and full of love. Thanks to all of my friends and family who have showered me with the most amazing support! You all are so beautiful to me and hold dear to me heart.

So whats next you might ask? Well treatments are over (Can I get a whoop whoop) but I still have a few surgeries ahead of me that have to be done before the end of the year. Yes, I said 2 :( Surgery #1 Thyroidectomy, Surgery #2 Hysterectomy. The thyroidectomy was added in the last few weeks. I had a whole handful of tests that I'd rather not list that basically indicates that I have toxic multinodular goiter. Sounds scary! Well don't panic my sweet things. I have 4 non cancerous nodules on my thyroid that are hyper functioning which is not safe for me. Since we already know that my body can produce cancerous cells and aggressive ones for that matter, it's not good for my body to be in a hyper metabolic state from the thyroid. Safest way to fix this for my situation, remove the little sucker. Who needs a thyroid anyway? HA! jk. I will be on replacement thyroid medicine for the rest of my lovely life. No side effects, nothing to it, that easy. Oh and my sweet Grammy had the same thing happen and removed when she was in her 30's. Just hereditary. Kinda crazy it's all happening to me right now but I'm happy to get it all taken care of this year! All I have to say is next year better be BORING medically. No surprises.
The thyroid surgery will be coming up in the next month and the hysterectomy will be at the end of the year.

Lot's to be Thankful for folks. I don't know about you but I'm Super pumped for the fall, cooler weather, pumpkin patches, chai tea lattes, Chiminea burning with pinon wood (YUM, love the smell), marathons, holidays, EEEK...Love this time of year!

OH AND DON'T FORGET! The Tulsa Susan G Komen Race for the Cure is Sept 17th! We have a group that is going to run/walk in the untimed 5k if you want to join :) It will be fun!

Much love to you all!!

Jen



Friday, August 5, 2011

Faith

Joshua 1:9

"Be strong and courageous! Do not tremble or be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go."


2 Chronicles 20:15

The Lord says to you, "Do not be afraid. Do not lose hope because of this huge army. The battle is not yours. It is Mine'."


Future Glory
18 For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us.
Roman 8:18

My heart is on fire. God has been gently pulling me into a direction and my heart is swelling with love to serve my purpose that he has chosen for me. Please Pray that I be BOLD for him.
I am doing wonderful, I am exactly halfway finished with radiation treatments! My last day will be September 1st!!! I am a little fatigued and my skin is beginning to redden and become sore but it's nothing I can't handle :) The radiation therapist told me today that I needed to stop shaving my underarm on the right side until radiation is over because that area is going to get really sensitive. Sexy. HAHA! I guess no more tank tops for now.
My vegan diet is going great! I feel amazing! It's been about 2 months without meat or dairy. And I have dramatically cut out sugar. I am beginning to work out again slowly from surgery and am determined to begin training for 1/2 marathons. The Susuan G Komen Race for the Cure in Tulsa is Sept 17!!!! Don't miss it, Come out and Run, walk, or just come and support a great cause ;)
Blessed for each day. Today...Thankful for life, Thankful for my Young Survivor Coalition group, my radiation therapist, sweet phone calls with friends, sisters, the unconditional love from my family, cuddles and kisses from my baby girl, a cool morning, A scripture that comforts at the right moment Romans 8:18, direction.

Much Love to you all,

Jen

Monday, July 11, 2011

Love.

Good Monday! What a blessed weekend we had! Saturday we played mostly outside and then went to Nana and Pop Pops for a delicious dinner. I provided a simple and super easy vegan dish(Avocado Lime Black Bean Salad from OhHowSheGlows) and it was absolutely delicious and everyone loved it! YAY! Sunday we had an amazing "At The Movies" series church service and then we met with our life group from Church to do Sarah And Richard's Stock Pot Ministry. We bagged 30 lunches and went downtown Tulsa and were able to hand them ALL out! Praise God. humbling and life changing experience. Later that day we met with our Life Group at the pool with all of our kiddos for some fun in the sun. This is Ava's first time at the pool this year and boy did she have a blast!! No fear whatsoever! She was jumping into the pool, going underwater and loved every minute of except for the part when it was time to go :) Anyway So blessed for our church, family and friends. I want to end this post by sharing some of my favorite scriptures! They have given me great comfort and peace.

Proverbs 3: 5-6

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; and in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight.

John 14:18
I will not leave you desolate; I will come to you.

Romans 5: 3-4
Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.

Romans 8:26
In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express.

Isaiah 41:10
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

Isaiah 41:13
For I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; and I will help you.

Matthew 6:8
Do not be like them, for your Father knows what you need before you ask him.

Psalm 5:8
Lead me, O Lord, in your righteousness because of my enemies-------make straight your way before me.

Psalm 139: 13-14
For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful

1 Samuel 17:47
All those gathered here will know that it is not by sword or spear that the Lord saves; for the battle is the Lord's, and he will give all of you into our hands.

Joshua 1:9
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.

Philippians 4: 6-7
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. But now, this is what the LORD says—
he who created you, Jacob,
he who formed you, Israel:
“Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name; you are mine.
When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.
For I am the LORD your God,
the Holy One of Israel, your Savior;
I give Egypt for your ransom,
Cush[a] and Seba in your stead.

2 Corinthians 12:9-10
My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Philippians 4:13
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Rejuvenate.

It's been 4 weeks since I've had my surgery and I'm feeling really good! Praise God! Recovering beautifully! Thank you all for the prayers! I will go to see my Radiation Doc tomorrow and set up my plan for radiation treatment. So happy to begin the end of my treatment :)
I'm embracing my new body, my healthy body each day and I'm thankful. I was joking with my sister, Katie the other day saying how I was representing the "0 cup", and she said, "no, the healthy cup".....so true. Thank you Katie, Love you! You might be asking whether or not I'm going to have breast reconstruction. Because I'm having radiation I have to put that option off for awhile for healing purposes. I'm also going to give myself a year or so to heal physically and emotionally before I make any more surgical decisions.

My Green Eating Vegan Adventure is going Fabulous and I'm feeling rejuvenated! It's been 3 weeks now and I feel refreshed and energized. And CLEANER. LOVE LOVE! I have been super inspired by many books, blogs, recipes, and my GREEN kitchen is now my goddess shrine. My husband is slowly easing his way into the lifestyle and he has loved every dish so far and is enjoying the transition. My 2 year old is a little more tricky but it's just her age and her independence. But we keep the old fashion rule in our house, there are no short order cooks in our house. One meal only, and we all sit down at the dinner table to eat. If you don't eat...you go hungry.

Green Juicing is LIFE CHANGING. Oxygen to your soul, literally.

My favorite Green goddess drink
-Cucumber (1)
-Celery (2-3)
-roman or spinach leaves (a big handful)
-pear
-pink lady apple
- 1/2 lemon

DELICIOUS!

I have found a blog called, Oh She Glows! It is under my blogs I enjoy to read at the side panel. She is a vegan and has a mega ton of recipes. All have been delicious so far! some recipes have sugar in them which i just omit. Love her site.
The book that I have read that I'm basing my vegan sexiness knowledge off of is Crazy, Sexy Diet by Kris Carr. She has inoperable, untreatable cancer and has lived this healthy lifestyle for 8 years, keeping her cancer at bay and her blood work beautiful. It's in the science folks. Plants and grains are good for ya! No brainer. Read her book, its amazing.

Much love to you all!!! Think Pink!!

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

I'm CANCER FREE!!!! Yes, I'm saying it again...because I can :)

I'm one drain tube away from being free!! I went to the Dr yesterday and to my dismay she only pulled one, I was still very grateful but a little disappointed to have to leave with the awkward and uncomfortable drain tube sticking out of my right chest wall. LOL! Did I paint a lovely picture? On a positive note, I received my Pathology report from my surgery!! My surgeon told me that there was only 1.6mm (that's TEENY TINY folks) of cancer left in my body when she went in for surgery! She said that it was amazing and that after removing it all and my breast there is completely clear margins all the way around. Also, out of 16 lymph nodes removed from my right axilla, only one came back positive which accounts from the remaining 1.6mm of cancer that remained prior to surgery. Pretty amazing! God kicked some major bootie on my cancer!! Best words to ever hear, CANCER FREE!!!!

Now it's the time to treat my body like the holy temple it is! Did ya know that Diet and exercise alone can reduce my chances of recurrence by up to 40% for my particular type of cancer, Triple Negative Breast Cancer? That's huge. NON NEGOTIABLE. My life is non negotiable. So here we go! My journey on becoming a Cleansed GREEN healthy fighting machine! Plant-based, organic, raw veggies, juicing, whole wheat, low glycemic fruits, alkalizing green drinks and super powered green smoothies. Saying NO to sugars, animal products, starches, caffeine, coffee and processed foods. I am super excited to embark on my new journey of health and life and and more excited that my family has committed with me! If any of you fellow bloggers out there are already living green and would love to share recipes, tips or anything, please do!!

I hope everyone is having a wonderful week!! Much love!!

Monday, June 20, 2011

Just because..

Happy Monday!!! I wanted to share this letter with you all from a woman that was diagnosed with breast cancer. This woman, like myself, was diagnosed with triple negative breast cancer and now two years later is cancer free. I relate to her words so much and feel like they could be my own. Happy Monday to you all!!! Much love!

Dear Cancer,

You came into my life a few months ago and caused me great pain. My heart was broken when I heard you were attempting to take my life. Many tears were shed and many screams into the nearest pillow I could find. To rid your disease my body was cut, poked and run down. I did not understand why you chose me. You caused extreme fear and worry for those that love me. You created a world for me that I did not want to be in. Your goal is death, but I would fight you hard. How can you stand the thought of taking a mother away from her two small children and leave her husband alone? Did you think I would allow this to happen? You made me sick and very tired and some days I could not sleep. You kept me up thinking what if..... You took away precious time from my children and family, time I cannot get back. You left my family helpless to watch me endure your motives. My mom and dad couldn't even fix this, they used to be able to fix everything. You took my sense of security of health and my hair. Most of all, you scared my children and I hated you for that. But not anymore.


It took some time, but I realized you are not in control. I am in control of how I remedy and handle what you have attempted to do to me. Although you are not a person, you are capable of doing what some people do to each other every day. I want to call you evil, but evil you are not. You taught me many things on this journey. Things I never knew before. You woke up my senses. Made me more appreciative for life and family. You allowed me to meet new friends to last a lifetime and build stronger friendships with those already my friends. Helped me see what true friends are all about. You made me humble. You showed me how loving and caring complete strangers can be. You made me realize how precious life is, and really how short it is. You taught me to not sweat the small stuff, there is always a bigger fish to fry. You made me want to get to know God, and place my faith in him. You are helping me be a better and a healthier person. You taught me patience and endurance. You made me want to help other women also embedded with your disease. You made me stronger, I can do anything now. You made me realize life can change in an instant, step back and enjoy the moment. You helped me get my priorities in order, what is more important. You allowed me to not take those I love for granted. I've learned that there are other people far worse off than me and not to feel sorry for myself. I've made you part of my life now, because you are. I will never forget what this journey has taught me. Better days are around the corner. It won't be long and I will have the ability to soak up my children's energy and appreciate it, my health, a new head of hair, and my head held high. Cancer, thank you for the lessons. Should you someday feel the need to come back and visit me, I will be ready for you.

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Blessed.

It's Monday morning, June 13th, 2011. 4:30am, a new day. I woke up and I have no fear and am calm looking straight into the storm. God has answered my prayers and has given me strength, courage, and peace. Gods Words always know how to comfort us in the right place and time. This was my morning bible verse, Exodus 14:13-14 13 But Moses told the people, "Don't be afraid. Just stand still and watch the Lord rescue you today. The Egyptians you see today will never be seen again. 14 The Lord himself will fight for you. Just stay calm. And that is exactly what I did.

Gives you goose bumps, huh? Pretty amazing. My family gathered with me at the surgery center and said a prayer over me before I went back for prep. I was walked back to the operating room and my surgeon met me at the door with her kind eyes and I was helped to the table. NO FEAR. I felt so calm. My Doctor took my hand and remained eye contact with me as the anesthetist began to apply the gas to me and IV meds to put me asleep. Surgery Successful. And then I woke up....and I was new. Blessed.

I can honestly say I have never felt so alive and happy. So thankful! My Doctor came to see me early the next morning and I will never forget these words, "You can now call yourself cancer free!" I AM A SURVIVOR. I KICKED SOME MAJOR CANCER BOOTIE and will continue to fight for the rest of my life ;) Praise JESUS!!! I still have radiation treatment and will start in a few weeks and this will last 8-9 weeks. This is to eliminate and kill any remaining cells on my chest wall. I will have another PET/MRI scan after my radiation treatments to officially confirm that I am cancer free. Please pray as I continue treatments and recovery.

I'm doing really good and each day I get a little stronger! I have the most amazing support of family and friends helping us out this week. Thank you! Thank you Mom and Terry for taking care of our little angel and Thank you Mom for taking care of me. Your an amazing MOM!! And to my sweet loving husband, THANK YOU for being a strong man of God and loving me fully and for... holding my hand, wiping the tears, dressing me, bathing me, changing dressings, and for telling me how beautiful how I am every chance you get. Thank You. God truly knew what he was doing when he sent you to me. (tear)
We have been blessed with some amazing people in our lives! From friends bringing us food all week long to sweet cards, texts, phone calls and visits...Thank you, I love you all. Thank you for the continuous prayers!

I will follow up with my surgeon on Tuesday for my post operative appointment! Big Day! For one, I will get these drain tubes out :) Halleluiah! and two, I will get to truly see my incisions and chest for the first time :) and yes, Everything is going to be alright :)
I hope everyone is enjoying a wonderful Father's Day!
Much love to you all!!!!

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

BYE BYE Tata's

Monday, June 13th. 4 days until my surgery. 4 days until I am cancer free and they remove my breast. 4 days! The anticipation is building and I'm ready. Ready to really LIVE my life. A new life...a new beginning. I give thanks because of HIM. Please pray for strength, courage, healing and no complications during my surgery on Monday and as I recover and start radiation. I love you all and will try my best to give updates as much as I can on my blog :) THINK PINK!


For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you, not to harm you. Plans to give you HOPE and a FUTURE. Jeremiah 29:11

Wednesday, June 1, 2011