Thursday, September 18, 2008

Just a thought

My worst fear EVER is too look back at what I've done over my life when I'm 99 y/o and say "I wish that I would have...."
This is always stamped in my head. I'm a bit of a dreamer, ok so that is an understatement. For those who know me well I've always had visions of my life and what I want to do while I'm on this earth. Some people in my life say my dreams are a bit out of my reach, unrealistic... but who is to say? They are my dreams and I truly believe that I am my own maker to decide if they are or not. Fear is what keeps us away from the possible, stepping out of our own personal boundaries and taking a Or is it rejection, failure, humility? This doesn't scare me, what scares me is not taking the risk and thinking what if? My dreams are personal and I keep them to myself only to know that I've written my own story when I'm ready to take the leap.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008


I'm desperate for a vacation!! I miss California and I ache for the aroma, cool breeze, and ocean surf that awaits me. I hope that as soon as I start working that we can start planning our get away. Travel is a part of me and I love to be on the road and to absorb as much of this beautiful world that I can. There are so many places that we long to go see and I can't wait to start checking them off my list as COMPLETED.

Saturday, September 13, 2008

OK, I'm officially done with ALL of the Stephanie Meyer's "twilight" series. Yes, all 4 books that had a least 600 plus pages in them and I finished them all this week. I only laugh to myself because it seems that since I've been back and am done with school I loved the thought of being completely occupied with something fun and carefree, like my books, so that I wouldn't get restless while Bo was at work and school. Rolla isn't the most exciting place to live ; ) but we make the best of it while we're here. But during this week I did feel a rush of guilt over me because even when Bo came home it took every bit of me to just lay down my novels. I got so wrapped up into the stories and characters that Bo was calling me "weird book lady." I'm glad he was willing to share and just let me be. I laugh to myself because I knew that I was a little obsessed but it was fun to just forget about school and know that I could selfishly devour all my time how I wanted and not feel guilty about having to do something else. This is something that I haven't felt in a LONG time so I rationalized it as a mini mental vacation from everything. But now I'm finished and feeling very satisfied and would recommend anyone to read these books!

Now my time is purely focused on my upcoming NCLEX exam to become an official licensed registered nurse. So AGAIN I'll be diving back into different type of books, but just with a slightly different motivation. It was nice to give myself a week to just relax and now I feel focused and driven.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

My Family

My other this crazy guy.
Me and my other Dad, Terry
My sister Katie! Miss this girl so much!

My gorgeous sis Kelly and her precious son Ian
My beautiful sister Susy and her soon to be husband, Dustin
Mother and Daughter
My dad and step mom Debbie giving me the "proud of you bear hug"

My look-a-like nephew Aidan!

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

I can't put these books down....

So, for my graduation my husband bought me the new Stephanie Meyer books about the star crossed vampire and human love. I have had my eye on these books since they came out but was too overwhelmed with school that I knew I would never be able to read them. BUT NOW I'M DONE WITH SCHOOL and I finally picked up the first book yesterday "Twilight" and I literally could not put it down. Yes, I finished the entire 500pg book in one day, one sitting. I've never been so captivated by characters before! It's a beautiful love story and keeps you on the edge of your seat with suspense. I begin the second book today and I'm a little embarrassed to say that it's all I've been thinking about :)

Monday, September 8, 2008


Last Saturday I joined my other classmates as we came together on stage to be "pinned" and become graduate nurses!! I'm am now officially a RN! It was a perfect day joined by family and friends in celebration of our accomplishment and the journey ahead of us as we go out in to the world to make a difference. I'm finally at home with my husband and it seems almost surreal! I keep thinking that I'll be leaving to go back to school in a few days but I'M HOME FOR GOOD. I feel at peace again. We made it through the most challenging obstacle and have come out stronger than ever. He's an amazing man, and I am so lucky call him my husband, my best friend.

Although It was a perfect day, and I got to come home to was also bittersweet because I am leaving some very good friends. Over the past 15 months in school we have spent every waking minute together or what it felt like. We were together through the ups and downs and helped each other get through this challenging experience. These friends always knew how to lift up and encourage one another and at the end of a long tiring day was somehow able to bring out uncontrollable laughter and endless smiles. I'll miss you and you'll always be in my heart.

Other BIG news that I haven't talked about is my job! I am working on the Cardiac Care unit at the hospital here in Rolla! Cardiac and critical care is my passion so this is a very exciting start in my profession! I will start at the end of September...Wish me luck!! These are a few unedited pics (sorry about the red eye) from the pinning ceremony and my yummy celebration cake afterwards!

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Good music and good company

Last night I went out for the first time in centuries (well it seems like centuries anyway) and my good friend Emily and I went and watched my step brother's band, "The Good Fear" play, who by the way is one of my favs (I wish you could have been there AC :). To me there is nothing more fun than kicking back and listening to some good live music, and let me tell ya...the are GOOD. I always want to do this, even when I'm old and keeps a person young and alive. Music is good for us and it can always lift up your spirits! We had fun, but it was OBVIOUS that we both had not been up that late in a long time because of school AEB the frequent yawning starting around 10:00! Pathetic, I know. We had Fun though and danced anyway! I'll miss my dear Emily when I move!!

ONLY 2 More days til graduation!!! AND Bo comes tomorrow!!!!