Tuesday, December 30, 2008


Our little baby must have been bashful today because he/she kept it's little legs crossed during the entire ultrasound and we could not get a very clear image of the gender! BUT, from what the Dr. and the technician saw they are 90% sure that it is a girl!!!!!! I will go back in a few weeks to get another ultrasound to confirm the gender.
This was by far the best appointment EVER. The baby looked like an actual little person with two legs, two arms and little fingers and toes. We saw every view of our child...the spine, bottom, feet , hands, stomach, legs, arms, the face with it's eyes, nose, chin, ears, and mouth, and even a glimpse of some of the organs! What a healthy growing baby! It was amazing. Bo and I could not wipe the smile and giggles off of our faces...it made it all so real.
The baby was sooooo cute. At first it had the hiccups and we could not stop laughing, so adorable. And then the baby was just stretching its little arms and legs all over the place. The baby covered it's face with it's arm at one point and then began sucking it's thumb. I'm in heaven and soooo in love. I can't wait to meet this perfect little angel.
Probably one of my favorite moments today was just seeing Bo's reaction to our baby on the screen. He literally was smiling the entire time and just had a mesmerizing expression on his face. His eyes looked like he had just fallen in love again. It made my heart melt.

Monday, December 29, 2008

There is so much to be thankful for. We have been so blessed this year and have alot to look forward to in the next year! Our beautiful baby will join us soon!! Bo and I were just thinking how this was our last christmas together, just us, before our little one joins us. It gave me chill bumps....so awesome.
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18weeks! My belly is growing so fast!

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Friday, December 19, 2008

Caught in action. My baby Mac sleeping on the sofa that is supposed to be off limits to four legged animals. He was so cute and peaceful!

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week 16

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lazy dayzzzz.

I absolutely LOVE after I've worked my 12 hour shifts to wake up to my day off, get up, make myself some scrambled eggs and toast and have a cup of "decafed" coffee. So nice. I can just lay around in my sweats and relax. I guess I should soak up this time as much as possible and enjoy it, lol. Can I just say how great I've been feeling!! I jinxed myself last time I said that I was over the sickness because a week later I was hanging over the toilet...again. But now that i'm into my second trimester and have been feeling great for the last few weeks besides the minor headaches I think it's safe to say that it is over. I'm axiously waiting to feel the so called fluttering in my belly from the baby but I think I'm just feeling gas intstead or my belly rumbling because it's hungry..again. I'll be 17 weeks in a few days! I find out the sex in about a week or so. Dec 30th! We already have names picked out....if it's a girl: AVA GRACE....if it's a boy: HENRY COLEMAN. I love these names. our boy name is after my grandfather that passed away and coleman is Bo's middle name. The girl name is just something that we came up with ourselves. It's so feminine and has and old hollywood glamour sound to it. So beautiful.

Bo has been so calm through everything. I ask him every so often.."Are you nervous about being parents?" And of course he is always so cool and confident and say's "no, we will be great parents and you are going to be an amazing mom." It is a little scary to me to be honest. This tiny little person that I have so much love for already is our responsibilty forever. Everything runs through my mind about parenthood and the different possibilities that we could encounter. I know that I will be a good mother and that we are going to do great but it's still a little scary. So sureal. I think it is mostly my pregnancy hormones and the emotional ride that i've been experiencing. I think a mother can be overly emotional about her pregnancy especially the first time because she is carrying this little person and feels a greater weight of responsiblilty and protection. I have an amazing support system and am so lucky to have an amazing husband who will be there every step of the way.

We had a great time in Mtn.home last weekend and it was so good to see everyone! I'm anxious to go back. It's so beautiful there and my dad's house is like out of a magazine, sitting on top of a mountain with spectacular views of the lake. We are traveling to Tulsa next week to spend about 4days with my mom, stepdad and my sisters and brothers. I can't wait! I am so lucky to have the family that I have.

Thursday, December 4, 2008


Hooray! I had my second baby appointment today and everything is going smoothly and the baby is doing great (big sigh). I'm just a few days shy of being 15 weeks! Time really does fly when your pregnant. It's hard to believe that the baby will be here in less than 6months. My next visit in 4weeks will be amazing because we are finding out the sex. I also can't wait to see how much the little sweet pea has grown! It is such a miracle.
Bo and I are doing great and patiently waiting for the holiday's so we can see our family! We miss everyone so much.

Monday, November 10, 2008

Oh, and another thing...YEAH FOR MORNING SICKNESS (actually for me, all day sickness) BEING GONE AND OVER WITH!! It's been exactly one week since the nausea and other symptoms that I would rather not mention went away and I feel like a million bucks now! I pray pray pray that it stays that way!!
I'm so excited for the Holidays! I haven't seen any of my family since graduation and I can't wait til we all get together. We ALWAYS have so much fun! I have to work on thanksgiving and that weekend so Bo and I will spend turkey day in rolla together. We'll miss everyone! BUT Christmas we'll be amazing! We'll go to Mtn.Home the weekend before Christmas and then head to Tulsa for Christmas...I can't wait! I can smell my favorite family dish already...Turkey dressing, yum! My mom is an amazing cook, my mouth is watering already thinking of the goodness that I will ingest.


Friday, November 7, 2008

lub dub...lub dub...lub dub...sweet sounds of our baby's heartbeat

Everything seems so real now. We had our first baby appointment this week (I'm 10 weeks) and it was the most amazing and exciting day of my life! First of all, my Doctor is so nice and very personable and second of all we got to hear the sounds of our sweet little baby's heartbeat! The doctor had said right before he placed the doppler on my belly that since I'm only 10wks that it might be hard to pick up the beat BUT as soon as he laid the doppler on my belly the heartbeat was heard right away, strong, and loud!! It was so exciting...words can't describe. Then to my surprise we got to have an ultrasound! I didn't think I would get one at my first visit! Let me tell you, to see our baby for the first time was priceless. Bo and I were grinning and giggling from ear to ear for the rest of the day...well actually for the rest of the week. We are so incredibly happy and can't wait for the arrival of our little miracle. I'll post a pic of the ultrasound soon!

Monday, October 27, 2008

My baby bun in the oven..

Awww pregnancy, it's been quite the journey so far. I'm now into my 9th week, ALMOST through my first trimester! Morning sickness, fatigue, bloating, and some other non glamorous effects are just some of the small sacrifices of this beautiful little person growing inside of me. It is all worth it though, even though I have to remind myself on days that I'm laying over the toilet, lol. It is crazy how my body is starting to change ALREADY. My jeans are fitting a snug bit tighter BUT my sweet sweet husband keeps reminding me, its baby gain not fat gain. He makes me feel so beautiful everyday. The first trimester is awkward because no one can tell that your pregnant yet but you see the changes in your body and how your belly begins to expand and become a little more fuller looking to your eyes. I honestly can say that I can't wait to really begin showing so that I just don't look puffy.

I have started my job and let me tell you, three 12hr shifts in a row are killer. I'm exhausted by the end of those shifts and my feet are killing me. I think the worst thing is is that I have cut out caffeine so NO COFFEE. But I have been told that I will regain my energy soon so I'm looking forward to that.

I was so excited a few days ago. My mom sent me our first baby outfits and baby blanket! They were adorable! Little matching outfits that were themed with sweet little ducks. So cute. She bought neutral colors so that it could go either way. My first Doctor's app't is Nov 5th! I hope that I get to hear the heartbeat! It makes me cry just thinking about it. I love this child.

Saturday, October 11, 2008


I passed my nursing NCLEX board exam! I'm officially a licensed registered nurse. I took my exam last thursday and found out at exactly 8:00 am this morning. It was the hardest and most intense exam I have ever taken and I literally buried myself on the couch doing nothing but watching movies and sleeping the last two days awaiting my results . I was so stressed out and was sure that I had failed BUT in some little place inside of me had hope. So when I saw that I had passed this morning I literally almost vomited while crying in happiness at the same time. It's a feeling I can't explain. It's an amazing accomplishment, my accomplishment.

There has been a huge weight lifted off my shoulder and now I can relax, be proud of myself, and begin to concentrate on bigger and more precious things in my future.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Just a thought

My worst fear EVER is too look back at what I've done over my life when I'm 99 y/o and say "I wish that I would have...."
This is always stamped in my head. I'm a bit of a dreamer, ok so that is an understatement. For those who know me well I've always had visions of my life and what I want to do while I'm on this earth. Some people in my life say my dreams are a bit out of my reach, unrealistic... but who is to say? They are my dreams and I truly believe that I am my own maker to decide if they are or not. Fear is what keeps us away from the possible, stepping out of our own personal boundaries and taking a risk...living. Or is it rejection, failure, humility? This doesn't scare me, what scares me is not taking the risk and thinking what if? My dreams are personal and I keep them to myself only to know that I've written my own story when I'm ready to take the leap.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008


I'm desperate for a vacation!! I miss California and I ache for the aroma, cool breeze, and ocean surf that awaits me. I hope that as soon as I start working that we can start planning our get away. Travel is a part of me and I love to be on the road and to absorb as much of this beautiful world that I can. There are so many places that we long to go see and I can't wait to start checking them off my list as COMPLETED.

Saturday, September 13, 2008

OK, I'm officially done with ALL of the Stephanie Meyer's "twilight" series. Yes, all 4 books that had a least 600 plus pages in them and I finished them all this week. I only laugh to myself because it seems that since I've been back and am done with school I loved the thought of being completely occupied with something fun and carefree, like my books, so that I wouldn't get restless while Bo was at work and school. Rolla isn't the most exciting place to live ; ) but we make the best of it while we're here. But during this week I did feel a rush of guilt over me because even when Bo came home it took every bit of me to just lay down my novels. I got so wrapped up into the stories and characters that Bo was calling me "weird book lady." I'm glad he was willing to share and just let me be. I laugh to myself because I knew that I was a little obsessed but it was fun to just forget about school and know that I could selfishly devour all my time how I wanted and not feel guilty about having to do something else. This is something that I haven't felt in a LONG time so I rationalized it as a mini mental vacation from everything. But now I'm finished and feeling very satisfied and would recommend anyone to read these books!

Now my time is purely focused on my upcoming NCLEX exam to become an official licensed registered nurse. So AGAIN I'll be diving back into different type of books, but just with a slightly different motivation. It was nice to give myself a week to just relax and now I feel focused and driven.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

My Family

My other half....love this crazy guy.
Me and my other Dad, Terry
My sister Katie! Miss this girl so much!

My gorgeous sis Kelly and her precious son Ian
My beautiful sister Susy and her soon to be husband, Dustin
Mother and Daughter
My dad and step mom Debbie giving me the "proud of you bear hug"

My look-a-like nephew Aidan!

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

I can't put these books down....

So, for my graduation my husband bought me the new Stephanie Meyer books about the star crossed vampire and human love. I have had my eye on these books since they came out but was too overwhelmed with school that I knew I would never be able to read them. BUT NOW I'M DONE WITH SCHOOL and I finally picked up the first book yesterday "Twilight" and I literally could not put it down. Yes, I finished the entire 500pg book in one day, one sitting. I've never been so captivated by characters before! It's a beautiful love story and keeps you on the edge of your seat with suspense. I begin the second book today and I'm a little embarrassed to say that it's all I've been thinking about :)

Monday, September 8, 2008


Last Saturday I joined my other classmates as we came together on stage to be "pinned" and become graduate nurses!! I'm am now officially a RN! It was a perfect day joined by family and friends in celebration of our accomplishment and the journey ahead of us as we go out in to the world to make a difference. I'm finally at home with my husband and it seems almost surreal! I keep thinking that I'll be leaving to go back to school in a few days but I'M HOME FOR GOOD. I feel at peace again. We made it through the most challenging obstacle and have come out stronger than ever. He's an amazing man, and I am so lucky call him my husband, my best friend.

Although It was a perfect day, and I got to come home to Bo...it was also bittersweet because I am leaving some very good friends. Over the past 15 months in school we have spent every waking minute together or what it felt like. We were together through the ups and downs and helped each other get through this challenging experience. These friends always knew how to lift up and encourage one another and at the end of a long tiring day was somehow able to bring out uncontrollable laughter and endless smiles. I'll miss you and you'll always be in my heart.

Other BIG news that I haven't talked about is my job! I am working on the Cardiac Care unit at the hospital here in Rolla! Cardiac and critical care is my passion so this is a very exciting start in my profession! I will start at the end of September...Wish me luck!! These are a few unedited pics (sorry about the red eye) from the pinning ceremony and my yummy celebration cake afterwards!

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Good music and good company

Last night I went out for the first time in centuries (well it seems like centuries anyway) and my good friend Emily and I went and watched my step brother's band, "The Good Fear" play, who by the way is one of my favs (I wish you could have been there AC :). To me there is nothing more fun than kicking back and listening to some good live music, and let me tell ya...the are GOOD. I always want to do this, even when I'm old and gray...it keeps a person young and alive. Music is good for us and it can always lift up your spirits! We had fun, but it was OBVIOUS that we both had not been up that late in a long time because of school AEB the frequent yawning starting around 10:00! Pathetic, I know. We had Fun though and danced anyway! I'll miss my dear Emily when I move!!

ONLY 2 More days til graduation!!! AND Bo comes tomorrow!!!!

Friday, August 29, 2008

HOORAY for the weekend! This means I have exactly one week left. I'm not counting down or anything ;) Oh..back to the subject of the weekend... it's Labor day weekend, the razorback game, AND most importantly my nephew Aidan's 5th birthday party! Busy Busy! I have a lot of family coming in to join in for the festivities so I am so excited! I plan on posting pictures within the next week or so! Have a good weekend.

Saturday, August 23, 2008

Momma's house...

I'm officially done with school! Now all that's left is graduation in two weeks. Man, this is a good feeling, quite surreal. I think it really hasn't sunk in yet and probably won't until I'm back home with my husband. I did experience a lot of emotions in class yesterday though. We had a closing ceremony and everyone had to talk about their experience from the nursing program and what they were going to be taking away from the experience. Ok, just imagine a classroom full of emotional women and you'll get the the picture. It was sweet and a good way to end the day. I am ready to move on...it has been a long 15 months for me and it is time. I have been through so much this past year and have experienced self growth and found a greater strength inside me. I feel like a new person. I have also learned that life is too often taken for granted and that we should live each day living and loving. Sounds cheesy, but it true and it's how I feel. So after this emotional week I decided what better way to start the weekend off....head to mommas house. So hear I sit what has to be the most loving and comfortable house ever, surrounded by people that I love, good food, good company and making memories to last. I think that this will always be one of my favorite places to come.

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Coffee and morning news...

Ya know, since I started school I have been so out of touch with whats going on in this world it is really quite ridiculous. Before I moved in with my sister I lived in my own apartment and I made the decision not to have a TV so that I wouldn't be distracted from school-SMART MOVE. But, on the other hand if anyone were to ask me ANYTHING about well...anything happening past the cardiovascular system or that pertained to medicine I would give them this blank "huh?" stare. So to get to my point, when I moved in with my sis a few months ago I was reintroduced to the world and cable. I think one of my favorite thinks right now is waking up early around 6:00 and getting a cup of joe and watching the today show. My mom laughs at me because she said last time she was down that I was so involved in the news and what was going on but she doesn't realize that this is my ONLY link right now. haha! I had today off and I thought that maybe I might sleep in but when 6 o'clock rolled around and I heard my nephews rumbling around to get ready I got too excited about waking up and having that sip of yummy hazel biscotti flavored coffee and watching my news so I rolled out of bed happily. I can say that as I get older that I have become more of morning person. I love getting up early and going outside and sitting on the porch with a warm cozy drink when its still cool and misty and the sun is beginning to rise.

Monday, August 18, 2008

Today was my nephews first day of school and I'm not so sure who was more excited...my nephew, or my sister. It was too cute. Aidan, my nephew I don't really think grasps the idea yet what kindergarten really is but he DOES know that he is going to be a "Gator" (the mascot). My sister on the other hand cracks me up! She has spent hours, I MEAN HOURS going over the curriculum, polices and procedures, school supplies to buy and other things that they have planned for the year! She has got sooo organized for his first day and got up REALLY early this morning, turned on some "feel good music" to get the boys juices going and made them a big breakfast. She is such a fun mom and so involved its cute. I guess not being a mom YET ;) I have no clue what its like but the excitement she displayed for her first child to enter school was just too funny. Oh, if your wondering, I'm staying with my sis for the summer until I graduate (which is SEPT 6...OH YEAH!!!) and let me say it has been so much fun and an eye opener for someone that doesn't have children and also for someone that grew up in a household full of girls. My nephews are 5 and 3 and ALL BOY. I like to call them lil monkeys because they are always running, bouncing, climbing, laughing, talking, screaming....and the most sweetest cuddliest little punkins ever.
On another note...It's been a good Monday. I finish my last psych clinical tomorrow, thank goodness, and Friday is my LAST OFFICIAL DAY OF CLASS. Whoa. That felt good. I still have some housekeeping to do though before graduation like a final next week, ATI Review, and a NCLEX review but all worries are out the door after this week. Then I can start studying for my Boards after graduation.
Bo and I received mountain bikes as a gift from my mom and step dad (THANK YOU!!!) and let me just say how much they rock! We love them! Bo has been riding alot more than me apparently because they are in Missouri and well, hmmm...I'm here in AR finishing up school but Bo has been having so much fun and riding everyday! Yesterday he rode 10 miles!!! I know, crazy. But he is so happy and feels so good about himself and I can't wait to join him so I can get in on this action! 10 miles. crazy.

Sunday, August 10, 2008


I have the cases of "I only have a few weeks of school left and I don't care about studying hard core anymore, I just want to pass" blues. It's BAD. No, really. Seriously I have been going non stop since I have been in nursing school and study from the time I get up til the time I go to bed..It's a little obsessive so right now I'm feeling kind of guilty but I'm throwing my hands up and saying I've worked hard and I'm giving myself an early pass to take it easy. I'm still doing great though in my classes so I'm not too hard on myself about it :) I'm imagining it's just because I'm so close to being done I can taste it (sept 6 is my graduation date), and I already have a job lined up!! Your looking at the next Cardiac Nurse!!! This has been the most rewarding and challenging experience. I truly love and am passionate about what I am going to do with my future and look forward to accomplishing my goals.

I came to see Bo this weekend and I am reminded of how much I miss everyday when I am at school. I am so caught up in my whirl wind of a life and when I come home its like a breath of fresh air. I really feel like I have taken a break from life because of school, sounds silly but it consumes me. I think my favorite thing right now when I come home on the weekend is when we take our doggies, Dakota and Mac to the river, going on walks, bike riding, and cooking together. We love being outdoors, and to be all together as our little family is just priceless to me. We have gone through so much together! With me graduating in a few weeks and my husband graduating next year with his Mechanical engineering degree (I'm so proud of him!!) we have a busy year ahead of us. It's exciting to think what lies ahead of us and where we'll be!

Saturday, August 9, 2008

Starting a new chapter...

Well, I have done it. I've committed to becoming a blogger. I'm graduating Nursing school in just a few short weeks and we'll be RETURNING HOME FINALLY to my best friend, my husband so we can continue our life together. It has been a long (I can't express that enough) 15 months to be separated from him but the sacrifice was well worth it and we have become closer and more appreciative of each other from this experience. It's hard to believe we have been together for seven years and just celebrated our 5th wedding anniversary! We are both ready to start the next chapter in our lives...